Thinking of others...

I sometimes fall down on this one. I was feeling so sorry for myself and was so busy being mad at my husband that I didn't even see that what he really needs most right now is a little love and understanding. I was so busy focusing on me and what I don't get and I didn't even realize how tough of a time he is having right now at work. My poor husband gives everything he has to give to his employers, but in this current economy it never seems to be enough. I swear if they could require him to give blood they would. The workload and stress are causing him to have anxiety and are taking the heart right out of him. I so wish I knew what to do for him, other than pray that the tides change soon. I don't know what else to do. I am looking into starting back to school, but that will take time...a lot of it, I'm afraid. With 4 kids, daycare is just not an option. I also WANT to be at home with them...but I want my husband to have options too. So, I will pray to be a better wife and I will pray that God can help him to cope better with what is expected of him and I'll pray that God will open some doors for me and make school accessible and will guide me into a new career.

I just love my husband more than anything. He is such a good man...and it hurts to see him so stressed and beaten down. I really want more family time. We are already daydreaming about life with a 40 hour work week for him and a 2 or 3 day work week for me..... I know the grass isn't always greener, but in this instance it sure seems like it ought to be.