Trucking along

Stress: lack of sleep, this darn economy, being a mom to 4 kids, a wife to a wonderful man...who works 70 hours a week, bills, bills and more bills.



Yeah, I am a little under the weather or a little overwhelmed by life at the moment. I am trucking along though and trusting that this is a temporary feeling, temporary circumstances. I am not joyful at circumstances right now, but joyful over who is in charge...because honestly if I had to face everything on my own right now I am not sure if I could. In fact, I am sure that I couldn't. I would probably be a very angry, unhappy person.



I am only getting a couple hours of sleep most nights right now. I nurse and this little guy seems to need to eat every 1 1/2 hours or so. My girls slept about 3 or 4 hours at a time from the start, so this is new to me. Between lack of sleep, responsibilities, and those post partum hormones, sometimes it is a bit difficult to be the person I should be, the mom I should be. Yet again, another reason I am having to rely on the Lord.



This darn economy stinks, stinks, stinks. It has messed with my husband's job responsibilities, adding even more to an already full plate, thus making him feel overextended and working even more hours.....for less $$. Unfortunately, this hurts us in the pocketbook. Like all companies, his is cutting what they can, so they are cutting and cutting. We are so lucky that T has a job and we don't forget it, but it is tough to budget and have to change it yet again because of changing circumstances. I babysat for a year, which really was awesome to add to our income, but I just do not think I could do that again right now. It wouldn't be fair to my children or myself. It would probably put me in the crazy house, lol.



Anyway, this is a pretty depressing blog, but my point is not to wallow in self pity, but to feel hope that God is going to bring us out of all of this and teach us a lesson or two and we will be better for it.